I dream about you. It's true. You probably have no clue about this but it's true. I think about you and dream about you. You see, I'm a foster mom and although the wish for most of the littles we care for in our home is reunification with their families, for some adoption is the long term plan.
I love all of these children as my own. I really do. Before I became a foster parent I knew I could love these littles but what I didn't know was the intensity that I'd love them. I truly do love them as my own. I dream for them and I ache for them. For in the gift of the new life in my care, there is also great sadness and angst. Sadness because of the losses that they've already experienced and yet aren't aware of yet. Angst at the unknown future that we face.
I also feel privileged. Because I get to love these littles and be their middle mom. I get to see their first smiles, hear their first coos -- and sometimes even their first steps or later developments. And in that is also sadness. Sadness that you're missing out on these special moments. I think about you.
And then my inner momma bear comes out: will you love this little as much as I do? Will you give him all he needs? Will you love him even when he's been naughty? Will you snuggle him when he needs special comfort? Will you sing his special songs to him?
You might think that I think you'll never measure up. But that's not my worry. Or you might think that I think very highly of myself. And that's not it either. It's just that my heart is full of love for this little. It is also full of protection for him too. And I know handing him over to you won't be easy. But my momma-heart wants to. I want you to love him as much as I do. Maybe more! My momma-heart needs to know he'll be safe and loved.
I love adoptive families and I am thankful for you. My husband and I have felt the call to foster care and not to adoption so we need you. We are thankful for families like yours who have stepped up to the plate to care for these children!
So many nights as I rock my little in my arms, I think about you and pray for you. I've never met you, I don't know anything about you, and yet I think about you. I get excited thinking that you have no idea that I've got a little who will soon be yours! I am proud of the little treasure who will soon be yours! I am thrilled that I will have the privilege of handing one of my most loved littles over to you.
Thank you for stepping up to the plate. Thank you for opening your arms and heart to my little. Thank you for moving ahead to an unknown future with this little. Thank you for being an adoptive parent!
I can't wait to meet you!